So I am in the last stretch of my senior year of college and I am always sad. Even when I’m happy, it’s temporary. I am always in a state of melancholy, like the wrong phrasing of words could make me cry at any moment. I read somewhere that college causes stress-induced anxiety. It’s like something is always wrong. Nothing is ever settled. I never get a chance to breathe without worrying about something. I have worked extremely hard these past few years. I studied abroad at a world-renowned university. I did everything right and yet I have faced obstacle after obstacle. I. did. everything. right. Do you know what that means? I was the “good girl”. I went to school, did my homework, stayed out of trouble, didn’t get pregnant, went to a top school, studied abroad, had an internship while I was abroad, but it doesn’t feel like enough. I do not feel like I am enough. I don’t have a job. A job offer. A job interview. A job prospect. I have nothing. Was my $100,000 student loan debt worth it? I don’t know. I’m in this gray place right now. There is clear happiness in my life and I have a lot to be grateful for. However I am emotionally fragile, like I just want to be wrapped in my mother’s arm right now.