There is a collective of poets called Strivers Row. During my early years of college, I watched their poems endlessly. When boredom and procrastination overtook me, the Strivers Row YouTube channel ended the boredom and furthered the procrastination. The work by the artists always pulled my attention and yanked my heart strings. I could take this entire post describing how much I enjoyed their work, but today we’re going to talk about one poem – “Love Poem” by Carvens Lissaint. I watched this poem so much, that when I finally saw Carvens perform this piece I knew all the words (yes, it was that real).
Fast forward to about a week ago, I started watching all of the Strivers Row stuff again. During the in-between time, I kept up with their work but never went back to “Love Poem”. My only reason for not doing so was that I was staying away from love. My focus was school and accomplishing my other goals. Dating was a distant thought and when I did date, I never took these men seriously.
Back to the poem
When I watched the poem and listened, really listened, tears began to fall from my eyes. This is super significant. It’s a signal that I am clearly in a new emotional stage of my life. What’s the change? I’ve changed. I also started dating someone that I feel like I can love. As a brokenhearted realest, I did not think I could feel child-like emotions for anyone again. More importantly, I didn’t think someone would enter my life who I would consider loving. This person has taught me so much about relationships and myself. The great thing is we’re still just dating. We are two people who met each other at life-changing moments in our lives who are still trying to figure it all out, separately but together. I’m not sure if I will allow myself to love as hard as Carvens, but the possibility of love is enough for me. While I am an asshole and a pessimist, I am a closeted hopeless romantic. “Love Poem” reminded me of the possibility of what it means to truly be in love with someone. The possibility of anything is what keeps us coming back for more. My reaction to the poem was always “Aww, this is so beautiful.” Now I want to thank Carvens for reminding me of the possibility of the experience.
This relationship that I am building is different. Emotionally I am a very difficult person. This guy that I am dating is very patient, constantly reminds me to love myself, and allows me to be free with him. Four years later after watching the poem every day, I understand the message. The first time we kissed I wanted to drink all of him in. Shockingly I wanted to share myself with him.
Whatever we have isn’t perfect, but it’s us.
With that being said, Valentine’s Day is usually depressing and sad. Even though I’m not doing anything with the guy I’m dating, I am okay with that (we’re just not there yet). I’m having a Galentine’s Day with some of my closest girlfriends, which is going to be so much fun. I recommend everyone take this love day, albeit commercial, to remember to value the relationships in your life. Love is not reserved for romantic couples. It’s for all the people in your life who you love and who love you.
So Happy Valentine’s Day Folks! Enjoy ❤